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The day I became a victim of rape

I know what you must be thinking. Why on earth would I open up about something so deep? I am an incredibly open person, and I feel strongly about raising awareness. Especially when it comes to the topic of rape. I did as much research on this as I could without breaking down inside, but the truth of it all is that rape happens too often and to too many. I will not go into details, because that might "offend" some people. I only mean that in a sensitive manner. This topic is so vague yet so intimate. Rape happens in so many different ways, but to me it happened brutally. On July 5th, 2017, I was about to discover just how unsafe this city really is. New Mexico, as a state, comes 2nd to Hawaii in crime. Not just rape crime, but crime in general. That is pretty sad. My birthdays for the last few years have not been spent with fun intent. The last time I had a blast on my birthday was when I went to Florida with a former friend to meet another one of our friend's that live...

When enough is enough

I just recently moved into my own apartmen t. I'm living by myself for the first time ever in my life. Just within the fir st week alone , I learned a lot about mys elf, and also about how much I relied on other peo p le. I became co-dependent in my intimate relationships and other r el ationships as well. For the last 7 or 8 years, I've definitely done a number on my well being. I will keep to the core about most things and spare the details. However, I want to talk about co-dependency and how I did not know that I was definitely becoming just that. "Codependency is a type of dysfunctional helping relationship where one person supports or enables another person's drug addiction, alcoholism, gambling addiction, poor mental health, immaturity, irresponsibility, or under-achievement. " - Wikip edia For the longest time, I felt that my duties were to be successful as a girlfriend and hopefully , someday, as a wife. I wan t a family, a good job . I want wha ...